Anxiety
To be human is to feel anxious at times; sometimes, a lot of the time. Like these days of covid-19 with a world turned upside down. If some tell you they are not affected, maybe it’s true and that’s truly great for them. Or it’s possible they’re in denial, a common state for some until they clue in to their increased irritability, exhaustion, rapidly beating heart, shakiness and so on.
I’ve had spells where it’s like an elephant is sitting on my chest and I “can’t get air.” Then my throat tightens and my head goes into a swirly daze. “Oh no, I’ve got IT!” A few hours later, those “symptoms” are gone. It’s crazy and scary, and I’m grateful it’s not happened often. Have you experienced anything similar? Mental health really does matter.
Anxiety rests on uncertainty, a fear of what will be. Like loss and more loss? Hopes and dreams up in smoke? In this forced “time-out” (which in and of itself can be a blessing), it’s easy for unresolved past issues to surface and haunt.
For some, addictive tendencies go wild; for others, boredom and a feeling of having no use squeeze tight, and with time on their hands, they notice themselves doing a lot of nothing. And then there’s the social distancing, polarized politics and frightening social behaviour broadcast for all to see (if we choose to expose ourselves), and the contradictory health advice, and the questionable media and the sharing and counter-sharing on social media and…Enough already!
The Stop Sign
When I saw the above stop sign the other day, I thought, “how fitting.” There’s been so much “stoppage” in our lives, and how appropriate to be reminded to breathe. A sure sign of undue stress and anxiety (and its extreme form, panic) is the sensation of not being able to get enough oxygen.
However:
The problem is not, as the sign suggests, that we need to “take a breath.”
The problem is that we are holding onto our breaths then barely letting them go.
Although breathing is an autonomic function, meaning it happens automatically and “beyond our control,” it is a function that does allow us some measure of control. This is immensely good news. Breathing well helps us feel better, more in charge, more at peace.
We’ve Got to be Able to Let Go
Holding on feeds fear by activating our sympathetic nervous system (anything but “sympathetic”). This is the fight, flight, freeze impulse from our limbic brain. Hyper vigilant to perceived threat and intent on keeping us alive, the limbic brain signals our adrenals to secrete hormones such as cortisol to empower us to escape or hide from danger, like the car coming straight at us or the intruder in our homes at night.
Once the danger passes, we should be able to breathe normally again. That’s especially hard, though, when the accustomed rhythm of our lives has been disrupted. If the feeling of danger does not pass, we get stuck. It’s exhausting. Check yourself right now by consciously sighing. Have you been holding your breath without realizing it?
Remember:
When we inhale, we naturally tense (“get a grip”)
When we exhale, we naturally relax.
Exhaling feels dangerous, like maybe the enemy will hear? To exhale feels downright counter-intuitive. But we’ve got to let go. Breathing exercises that get us mindfully exhaling allow us to regain a more balanced sense of control and help us calm down. We need to engage our para-sympathetic nervous system. With mindful breathing (and it may take a fair bit of practice), it’s possible to enjoy the deliciousness of such natural hormones as oxytocin, aka the loving hormone. It’s a chemical thing.
Breathing to Relax
In preparing to write this blog, I watched an excellent video by anxiety and panic specialist David Carbonell. He put a smile on my face, especially when he demonstrated chest vs belly breathing! Please do watch. Below I’ll add some notes and a meme you might find helpful (and fun) to use.
- Stand, sit or lie down. Put one hand on your tummy and one hand on your chest.
- Sigh to relax neck and shoulders. Keep your shoulders down.
- Draw air in slowly through your nose into your belly. Pretend your belly is a balloon you’re blowing up.
- Exhale through your mouth slowly, longer than your inhale. Tummy should fall, like the balloon is deflating.
- Repeat.
- (There’s controversy about whether to pause between breaths or not. You choose.)
Remember, “Up and down is bad; out and in is good.”
Follow Along with Me!
Want to adjust the speed? Easy. After you click the arrow to play, click the setting “wheel” right beside the word YouTube at the bottom of the video. Then click “playback speed.” Adjust. (Sorry there’s no music.)
Before I Say “Bye for Now”
Do you find that mindful breathing helps? Perhaps you have suggestions for relaxation you could share? We’d love to hear from you! Let us know how you’re doing. Please share in the comments section below. Incidentally, I will reply to every comment left, so please check the box beside “Notify me of follow-up comments by email” if you’d like to see my response.
Please take good care of yourself and remember to breathe in, and then let it all out.
Genuine, immediately useful, positive and, like you, heartfelt.
Ah, Mary, thank you!
Hi, Ramona. Yep, this Wuhan Flu (as a resident of Wuhan, I feel that I have a right to call it that) is getting to me, too. And, it has affected, and is affecting, my life in a number of significant ways, specifically (1) forcing either me to miss my daughter’s wedding in the USA, or her to postpone it, and (2) forcing me to split with my Chinese citizen wife of 8+ years, unless travel restrictions return to “normal” within the next few months. And, I may even have had the Flu, as I had almost all of the symptoms for a 2-week stretch back in early-mid January. Fortunately, however, I had recovered by the time it was widely known that there even was a coronavirus on the rampage. So, my emotions have gone from concern to anger to frustration to boredom and back again at varying times. But, as a retired guy, my lifestyle hasn’t changed too terribly much. Now, I have a good excuse for wasting hours upon hours sitting in front of my computer! And, I even managed to rewrite the lyrics to a song I wrote several years ago, and the new version is a big improvement!
My thought about breathing: keep doing it. Oh yes, and enjoying good music can be a big help (Deng Lijun anyone?). Here are a couple others you may enjoy (they’ve helped me during this period) by Lena Lim: (1) Poem Without Words https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxi4Fl7T2_U, and (2) 爱你爱你 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85ArvcrhRL8
All the best, Ramona. Hang in there!
Hi David,
Yes, as a resident of Wuhan, you most certainly can call the darn thing anything you want! Yes, it has affected you. Lucky you got off “easily.” It’s not known for sure if you have gained immunity, but let’s hope so. Tell me, were skies amazingly clear over Wuhan during covid-19 and air sweet to breathe? How strange did everything feel for you? With lock down long over now in Wuhan, have people been more tentative about engaging in normal behaviours or are they “everything’s just fine?” Does Chinese media talk about being prepared for 2nd and 3rd waves?
I live in Victoria, BC, on Vancouver Island. People have been dutiful with social distancing, staying home except for essentials, etc. (We did not have lock down.) Cases are relatively few but that could partly be due to the measures, which are now being eased. Warm spring weather with summer on the way, can lull people into feeling all is A-okay, but we’re told not to be fooled. Time will tell.
Yes, music is great. Teresa Teng (Deng Lijun) for sure! Thanks for the Lena Lim video links. I’d not heard of her before.
Best wishes to you too. May all go well for attending your daughter’s wedding and for not being forced to split with your wife. And thanks for your comments. It’s wonderful to hear from someone living in Wuhan.
Ramona
Thanks for the good wishes, Ramona!
I did notice, and it’s still the case, an air quality improvement, but the skies have not become amazingly clear (although somewhat clearer, yes). We can now see some stars faintly shining in the night sky, whereas before there were none. My wife longingly tells me about how the sky was filled with bright stars when she was a little girl.
It’s a pretty dismal state of affairs over here. General activity has returned to maybe 40%-50% of pre-virus levels. We’re still wearing masks, and we have to present an appropriate smartphone QR code or papers (in my case) to get around on public transportation and to enter many places. And, many businesses have not reopened, so it’s unclear as to whether they are just waiting for increased activity to justify gearing back up, or they have been wiped out. I must say, I love Wuhan and the people I’ve met here, so I find what has happened to the city to be very sad.
By the way, while I really like those two Lena Lim songs, she didn’t have too many others on the same level. But, maybe check out her versions of “Unchained Melody” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TlhDTpXCsJI and “Eternally” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FfIWA5o6NVY.
Hi David,
I find it very interesting to read your 1st hand experience living in the “birthplace” (so to speak) of covid-19. I was only in Wuhan for maybe 3 or 4 days in 2014 but do recall how clean the city was and attractive, and as always, the people were wonderfully kind, friendly and helpful. In short, I liked Wuhan and can well imagine your sorrow. Is it possible that city lights account for the lack of visible stars? I recall that Wuhan was surrounded by a LOT of water, lakes, river-ways, etc. Is the city in a valley that more readily holds pollution?
I’ve written to a friend in Xiamen with a link to this blog post. I hope he will comment about what life is like for him and his family in coastal Fujian province. I will write to a friend in Harbin too. I HATE to say it, but there have been some ugly racially-motivated incidents against Chinese people as though the virus is their personal fault. Putting a human face on people wherever they may live, especially those in China, is important. We’ve got enough stupidity in our world. There is no rightful place for racism except a trash can, and even there it takes up too much space.
Thank you, again, David, for the music links. I shall enjoy checking them out. I enjoy your correspondence!
Zhu ni hen hao,
Ramona (aka lin mingxin 林明心)
Hi Ramona,
Your article sounds exactly like you—positive, helpful, down to earth. You managed to reassure people that they are not going crazy, not battling sleepless nights alone, not the only ones having anxiety issues. Then you gave very clear, specific directions on what everyone can control. Slow, deep breathing, being mindful can put some of the anxiety to rest. Thank you for writing and posting this article. Stay well.
Jackie
Jackie, you are such a dear! Reassuring others is actually an attempt to help reassure myself that I’M not going crazy. I’ve already had many sleepless nights. It can be so hard, can’t it? An invisible little something has sure managed to jangle the human race. I hope you stay well too.
Hi Ramona, I am not a person who experiences panic or anxiety to any significant degree but I appreciated reading your blog and felt reaffirmed in my rituals of yoga breathing and pausing. Thanks,Carol
Carol, thank you for the affirmation. Our world needs as many grounded people as possible. Good for you for keeping up with your healthy practices.
Dearest Ramona (明心),
Although I live in Northeast China, far away from Wuhan, I have experienced the kind of anxiety (panic) that you have. For example, during this pandemic we have been required to wash hands and take our temperature twice a day. At the very beginning of the virus, for some days I washed my hands so hard and so often that I felt as if my skin was falling off. One morning after that, I took my temperature and found it was 37.3. I said to myself,”I may have it”. Then I had another look and found it was not 37.3, but 36.3. My point is, you are right about uncertainty and fear feeding anxiety; anxiety causes over-reaction.
As it always turns out, love or care is a good cure for the pandemic. Whenever I get an email from you, it seems to me I see the sun behind the clouds. Thank you, my dear friend, for sharing things with me at this difficult time.
Songhe, I have thought about you in Harbin so often during this pandemic. I can only imagine how frightening it must have been in China in the early days of the infection, in the middle of winter too. Love and care from family and friends is what can keep us grounded. Not being able to be with others (unless you live in the same place) has been devastating for so many. It’s debatable if the effects of isolation have been as destructive as the disease. Keep taking really good care of yourself, my friend.
Hi Ramona,
I enjoyed the mindful breathing exercise. Being measured and mindful was helpful. Before, and especially now during these COVID times, I have been taking in the following meditation on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kUtH0DDJorM .It offers me a reminder of who I really am. And if nothing else, the photography is nothing less than majestic!
Take good care,
Brian
Thank you, Brian, for the good wishes and the link. Beautiful video and reminder.
Hi Ramona,
I so enjoyed reading your blog. You really have a gift in your style of writing, packed in wisdom. I think your blog pretty much describes what so many of us are feeling. Thank you for reminding us of the gifts we all have inside us. The video on correct breathing is a perfect reminder of that. I’ve started doing yoga at home again. Sometimes I really have to push myself do it and interestingly, when I do, I always feel so much better and glad I did.
Thank you for sharing.
Kindest regards,
Michelle
Thank you, Michelle. Yoga is something I keep telling myself to do. It would involve my finding some videos and it’s crazy how resistant I am. It’s like I need someone to take me by the hand and say, “Okay, now this is what we are going to do together.” I bet yoga would help me feel much better too!
You are such a breath of fresh air in this crazy world, Ramona! Thank you! I learned how to breathe like this as a youngster thanks to my chorus and flute teachers. Sometimes at night when my thoughts fly all around my head, I use these breathing techniques and a little mantra I repeat to myself. It takes time but eventually it helps my mind become still and calm. You stay safe and well, my friend. Sending love, Lois
Ah, Lois, you are so kind! Sending love to you too.
Thank you for sharing this Ramona. These times during covid have certainly given rise to waves of anxiety, and moments where you realize that you have been holding your breath far too long waiting for a change or resolution. It is definitely a time to remember to breathe through it and surrender to being in timeless existence, remembering that each breath exists only in each moment, just as we do. But I know that events or just thoughts will jar me back into forgetting once more, until I once again remember to find that rhythm. Xoxo
Holly, I know all about waves. Darn if they have to be of such huge proportions at times. I’ve been prone to anxiety throughout my life. Practice and more practice with mindful breathing makes a difference. Discipline is what it takes. I love your words: “a time to remember to breathe through it and surrender to being in timeless existence, remembering that each breath exists only in each moment, just as we do.” Yes, the transience of life. We only have right now, and right now, and so on, each moment. And each moment can be so different. Breathe in peace with a smile and breathe out everything not peace with a smile. Yes, finding the rhythm of peacefulness. Thank you for your beautiful poetic comment. xo
I am a student of your good friend Wang SongHe, and I am from China. After reading your article, I am deeply impressed by your literary talent. I hope to get your reply.
Báiyáng, thank you for your kind message! It is wonderful to hear from one of Songhe’s students. She told me that she’s teaching an online course to students from all over China, not just students from Harbin. Please tell me where you live, how you yourself have fared with the coronavirus, plus anything else. I and others in Canada would be interested in whatever you’d be willing to share. Here in the comments section of this blog is as good a place as any to write! I am really happy to hear from you, and I hope you will respond once again. Xièxiè nǐ.
I discovered the bottom animation many years ago, the one with the unfolding geometric shapes. I regularly use it in my classroom as it is such an easy way to have students follow along with mindful deep breathing. Such a simple practice that can have big benefits.
Love you mom,
Daniel
Wow, that’s great that you have incorporated regular mindful breathing times into your classes, Dan. High school can be such a stressful time. Your students have indeed been fortunate. (Love you too!)
Love this message and the useful tips! I’ve been dedicated to doing at least a 10-minute meditation daily, and while of course it’s a work in progress, I’ve gotten to the point that I really do make it (and therefore myself!) a priority. I’ve even found a 3-minute meditation I sometimes do if I’m about to have a stressful meeting at work. Focusing on your breathing has so many benefits! And in general, kindness. Simple kindness. Showing it to others; receiving it from others. It does a world of good.
Thank you, Colleen, for your affirmative message! Is the 3 minute meditation you do online? If so, care to share the link? Kindness, I agree, really does the world a world of good. ❤
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